It seems like in life we’re always waiting for something. A bus, a repairman, the end of the work day, the birth of a child…. the birth of a dream…..an answer to prayer.
I’m in a season of waiting. A whole season. Sometimes it’s exhausting. This waiting, expecting, hoping, watching, listening, wondering. I try to be patient; to encourage myself, usually by reading the Bible, praising God, listening to uplifting music – those disciplines I’ve been taught as a follower of Jesus. And I try to be content where I am, continually giving things to God. Telling Him I’m sorry for being ungrateful for all He’s given me. Only to take those same ‘things’ back again, apparently, because the discontented feelings resurface eventually.
Maybe you’re waiting, too.
Waiting for a fun, new job with creativity and lots of satisfaction. One that you look forward to going to everyday. That helps you not mind that it’s Monday.
Or waiting for love and a family, wondering if that’s going to happen for you.
Or waiting for your skills and talent to match your dreams.
Life is so full of unknowns. Mysteries. Disappointments. But it’s also full of surprises and wonder and joy. Of new beginnings and hope. Of peace and contentment.
I know this is awful, and shocking, but I used to say, “Life sucks, and then you die.” (I know!) Slowly, God has changed (is changing) my outlook. He’s helping me to look beyond circumstances, surroundings, bank balance, and the other trappings of life here on earth, and instead look at Him.
His economy, allegiances, opinions, are not the same as those we’re surrounded by. He owns everything. Loves everyone. Forgives those who ask. And draws near to those who seek Him. In fact, He promises that when we seek Him, we will find Him, if we seek Him with all of our heart. He says, ‘Seek Me, and I will be found by you.’
That’s the best kind of waiting.
Waiting in God’s presence. Because He is good and worth waiting for.
I was re-reading one of my favorite Brennan Manning books yesterday, after hearing the sad news of his death. Here’s a quote he included about waiting: “In a revealed religion, silence with God has a value in itself and for its own sake, just because God is God. Failure to recognize the value of merely being with God, as the beloved, without doing anything, is to gouge the heart out of
Christianity.” (Abba’s Child)
So waiting isn’t always a bad or hard thing. It can be illuminating. Fulfilling.
It can also be restorative and refreshing. Another Bible verse says, “Those that wait upon the Lord will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles.” (Isaiah 40:31) That is a promise from God to us that He will give us the strength we need to continue. Even if it’s to continue to wait.
I’m also waiting to be made perfect. To stop making the same mistakes again and again. I think I can file that one under “Definitely not going to happen.” At least, not on this side of Heaven.