I haven’t written in such a long time…I think it’s because I’m afraid I have nothing to say. The longer I’ve put it off, the bigger and scarier it’s become. I get overwhelmed by the enormity of the pressure to say something profound or “helpful”.
And, I get distracted easily! Like right now – it’s raining, and the dog is outside, and people are talking in the other room.
Also, I feel like I haven’t heard anything from God that He would like me to say. But do I have to hear from heaven in order to say anything? Of course, not! So why do I see it differently just because these are written words instead of spoken ones?
Perhaps it’s time to decide why I want to write a blog any way. Am I doing it to reach out? To teach? To relate? Or just to have a creative outlet and maybe have a few people see it?
Self-examination is even hard to maintain over the noise of the everyday sounds of life that intrude into my thoughts.
My daughter, the wise student/author, has said, “Just start! Don’t worry about what you’re saying. It can start out as a bunch of nothing, but as you carry on, it can become something.”
So that’s what I’m attempting to do today. Just start.
If I’m forever trapped in the cycle of allowing fear to keep me from starting, I’ll never attempt anything at all.